Saturday, May 17, 2008

Unwrap A Smile

I layed in bed all night thinking about this post, trying to come up with the perfect title. Here were some of the contenders....

1. Please don't judge me.
2. Have you ever....
3. I am not an emotional eater...REALLY I'm not.
4. Who am I kidding.
5. I will get back on the wagon tomorrow.
6. I know I am going to hate myself in the morning.
7. It's all fun and games until....

So yesterday wasn't a great day. Dallan called about 2 hours after his interview. I ran to the phone (the only time I am willing to run), answered and asked okay what's the verdict. He said I have good news and I have bad news, which do you want first? You know as well as I do that when someone says that to you it is never good news just bad and really bad. But I took the bait and said give me the good first. He said I think I did really well in my interviews and I said okay that is good, so what's the bad? He said the bad is the people I interviewed with were idiots. To make a very sad and long story short this trip was a complete waste of a vacation day. He couldn't get over how unprofessional they were and how the company had paid for such a wasted trip. The guys he interviewed with were not even the guys who make the decisions as to who will be hired. He said not one of them asked him a question that wasn't written on a piece of paper and that one guy he spoke to chewed bubble gum through the entire interview. They told him nothing about the company and nothing about what he would be doing.

So we hung up...both of us dissapointed for lots of reasons. I called my mom. I cried a little bit (so much for my indifference huh?) and then I packed up the kids and headed to the store for a little retail therapy...my favorite kind. I picked up some flowers and window cleaner and on the way to the ckeckout counter I saw the stand stacked with Little Debbie snack cakes in varying kinds. Madelyn mentioned they looked yummy and that was all the excuse i needed...before she could say "Can we get some?", I had thrown two boxes in our cart. Oh, and did I mention the king size box of milk duds I picked up while standing in line (thank you Lexi)?

We made it home without me tearing in to the boxes of the before mentioned snack cakes. I made it the rest of the day without eating a single one and later that evening as I walked past them I even congratulated myself for having self control. So the kids went to bed and I stayed up to catch up on my DVR events and while laying there I thought I will just have one...from each box. Oh who knew processed sugar could taste so good...I will just have one more...from box A. Before I knew it box A had only three little snack cakes left. I had almost eaten the entire box in the span of about 2 hours. I refuse to mention what kind of snack cake it actually was because well I do have some sense of pride. So much for self control.

14 comments:

Sherri said...

Oh Mandee you are a good girl to post and to be honest. When these days occur for me I even hide them from Royce.....

Don't worry about it. Today is a new day and well it's sounds like you might be out of little debbie's so no more temptations right? or your sick stomach might keep you away?

As for AR. I am sorry it was a waste of time and sorry they were idiots! I guess your dissapointment taught you something and maybe this will open another door? Thinking of you :)

Oh and not to make you miss PO but today is the most beautiful day and for the pacific northwest it is HOT. bathing suits are on!

Angie said...

Little Debbie is always a great friend to have when you are alone and a little depressed. I don't know if I could ever be that honest on how much I eat! things always work out. We just have to have patience.

Suebee said...

There is absolutely nothing wrong with your way of dealing with an upset. I will back you in your Little Debbie's as much as you want. Sometimes you just need a little artificial pick me up.

Mandee said...

Susan I like that...Artificial Pick Me Up. I think I will keep that one for future use! And by the way I am back on the wagon! My friend Debbie has made her way back to the closet and will patiently await until the next big upset. Man I have great friends!

Heather said...

Sounds like you guys are suposed to move back here! I mean really, what other choices do you have?

Too dang funny about the little debbie snack cakes! LOL! I can totally see you lying in bed thinking about what to title the post. Probably going from giggling about it to bemoaning it!

I'd like to throw in a few others, but I'll just call you with those! LOL!

Thanks for this wonderful post and true story! This is what makes for a good blog! The good and the sometimes not so good!

Back to the job, I'll go around town and pick up some applications for Dallan, he knows how to work a cash register right?

Libby's Library said...

What a Beautiful Family Picture! I've wanted to comment so very often, but wasn't sure if I should - you see, I'm Stephanie's Mom. I would like to have some "one on one" contact with you if that would be possible. Let Steph know if it's okay - she can give you my email address!

snbjork said...

Mandee, you are hilarious! Don't you know that we ALL go a little crazy like that sometimes?! I used to try and hide it from my husband because I was embarrassed, but now I admit it and move on. I agree with your friend who said we need artificial pick me ups every so often!

You will be in our prayers. I just love reading your blog and knowing that Madelyn got such an awesome Mommy!

~Suzanne

Mandee said...

Thank you Suzanne! I appreciate and love you for you for saying that, ESPECIALLY after reading my blog!

Mandee said...

And Stephanie's mom...if you read this I am so glad you decided to post! Of course it is okay! And I would love to chat with you anytime. Stephanie has my email address and she of course can send me yours, what ever makes you more comfortable. I hope to hear lots more from you.

Unknown said...

Don't blame me for the milk duds. They're impossible to resist.

I enjoy you.

Mandee said...

Yes, I can blame you and I DO blame you...why?? Because you are
E-VIL!! But aside from that I absolutely ADORE you!

Libby's Library said...

Next time try Snackwells Devils Food Cakes. They are just as good, but you can eat just as many, but with a lot less fat and fewer calories. And, by-the-way, us girls aren't the only ones with a stash put away for "times in need". My husband has a whole drawer in his bedside table, that's full of goodies. Of course, his "time of need" is whenever the TV is on. -- How do they do that? I mean he eats anything he wants, and doesn't gain any weight. I watch him eat, and put on 2 lbs.!

Misty said...

oh, mandee. you came and you gave without taking......just kidding. you crack me up. all the time. first, let me say that i totally have retail therapy-itis too - i just never knew there was a name for it. and my nemesis is the chocolate turtle chex mix. i have sat down and eaten a whole bag of that by myself in one sitting before. sorry about the job - we are going through something similiar right now. does it ever end? happily?

These Small Hours said...

I can totally relate....sometimes I feel like that nursery rhyme..."when she was good she was really, really good, and when she was bad she was horrid>" (pertaining to my will power when it comes to eating right) (: