Wednesday, February 10, 2010

To a Great Man....

A couple of years ago I had the thought that I wanted to make a list of people who had made a positive impact on my life and then write each of them a letter thanking them. Well like lots of ideas...they came....and then they left. But as I was reflecting on this new year and what I wanted to accomplish again the thought came to me and this time I decided I was actually going to follow through with it. So I made the list. And out of all the names there were just two people who I hadn't seen or spoken to in several years. Finding them was going to be the hardest part. I set about my search and after several emails to the MTC and several google searches later I found one of the two. Actually, I found someone with the same name...Kelly R. Gehret. I decided to take a chance and write this person an email hoping that they were somehow related. And sure enough the Kelly Gehret I wrote was the son of President Gehret who was my Branch President in the MTC. But I was too late. President Gehret passed away in 2004.

So who was President Gehret? Upon arriving at the MTC I was scared...shell shocked...unsure of myself, and above all those insecure feelings I was left feeling VERY aware of all the wrong choices I had made. I felt worthless and in no way worthy to be there. And in comes President Gehret. To say I was intimidated would be an understatement. When he spoke...you listened. This man saw right through me. He knew I was struggling. What I loved most about him was his unwillingness to give up on me. He saw something good in me. He believed in me...believed I was capable of becoming more than I had allowed myself to be up to that point in my life.

The few letters he wrote to me while I was a missionary are some of my most prized possessions. The lessons he taught me about forgiveness, God's love, and the importance of seeing yourself the way God see you are priceless. I am only sorry I never got to tell him how I finally moved past the guilt. How I learned to love myself in spite of the mistakes I had made and how because of him I try harder to see the good in other people. Thank you President Gehret for changing the course of my life...I look forward to seeing you again someday.

6 comments:

Emma Jo said...

What a wonderful wonderful idea...I've always known that you guys were too "spiritual" for us :)
I think it is such a great idea...and I love that we have people like that in our lives. I hope that even though he isn't around to hear it that you still sent that message to his family. Priceless and what it is all about.

Emma Jo said...

PS You are a super cute missionary.

Lexi said...

I love this so much. It's amazing what an impact for good people can have on our lives.

He's proud of you, I'm sure.

You were a HOT missionary, Mands.

Andria Laws said...

Lexi's right, I'm sure he's proud of you too.
People like that are so inspiring. Thanks for sharing your story.
Love you.

火吟 said...

thank you for you to make me learn more,thank you∩0∩

裕以 said...

Actions speak louder than words. ........................................